Past lives.

In this ever changing world, we're continually growing into a bigger community; a community of larger beliefs and larger personalities. But are the two connected? I've always classed myself as a Christian, but 'real Christian's' would probably look down on my generalisation. I don't attend Church, I don't pray but I believe. The thing is... can religion be a mix and match scenario? Buddha spent years looking for enlightenment and if he gave to others as a pose to himself in the current life, he would live a much better next life. And assumedly, each time you'd build on your personality...but this being said, does this mean that our past lives are a bigger influence than our current environmental influences?
I guess I'm pretty naive. I'm a girl living in a tiny town with a small loop of friends that likes to party when the occasion arises. I don't like getting in too deep... the first sign of uncertainty or worry and I'm out of their, I've always said that this was due to my upbringing and the general person I am. But what if this isn't the case at all? What if I'm in fact an evolved model of my past life? Maybe I'd had my heart broken one too many times or maybe I was sick of having people to rely on. So I evolved... I evolved into an independent; someone who's rather happy in her own single little bubble living her life through her mind and sharing her thoughts through her keyboard. And if this is the case, is evolution bad or good? Dinosaurs became extinct... they evolved 'out' but does this mean they weren't suitable?
I'd class myself as a suitable person. No, I may not be following the society friendly ways of a girl my age. But, does evolution mean that I can evolve beyond my expectations and just settle for me?

Keep Dreaming xoxo