Summer chills

Have you ever realised that the more you expect something, the more it lets you down when it doesn't happen. I expected that May would be full of those 'Indian Summer' days so that I can whip out my bright orange sundress and all of my florals. Instead? We get a months rain that is still passed off as a drought. It's the same in life. When you wake up and have a day of hard revision ahead of you, but slowly realise that even you couldn't stick to that plan, you can't help but being a little disappointed in yourself. Exam season begins next week and for once I'm  not completely dreading them. It's the next step which will lead me my dream life. But even next week I could disappoint myself. Confidence isn't something that I ever feel when I go into an exam, but I do like to feel relaxed. The problem with that is that I manage to come out ten times more stressed then when I went in and it's truly disappointing. I guess it's just a case of the Summer chills? I'm hoping to ace my exams (isn't everyone) and so I'll be even more disappointed then usual if I fail. Maybe if the sun came out I'd have much more of a positive outlook. Finger crossed! xoxo